Abandoned

Self-absorbed in a vortex of consequences

Lost in the company of misery

And all her companions

Left alone, trampled

Under the marching feet of obliviation

Another unnamed demonic force

Broken down by compulsion

Yet unbroken by faith, for in the midst of recovery all for HER sake

Consumed with guilt and sorrow

No more manifesting within

Hoping for a nostalgic moment

To escape

The scapegoat children; used

Thoroughly abused

Sheer terror is a family value

Mother, may I?

The self-hate and misery ate at Her internally

Inside and out

Like battery acid on flesh

Shit, I'm still tortured by these self-inflicted demons

Oh, to decompress

In a good and orderly direction

I find myself on bloody knees

Begging!

Please give me gratitude

Let this not all be wasted

I've tasted it once, maybe

I know how not to be

And I know I need some fucking gratitude

And so deliverance comes with each exhale

A demon and its torment is released

And with every inhalation, I begin to feel alive

And stress-free

Free from torment and resentments

From the depths of my soul