Self Destruct

Another day alone seems nothing

Because it's all I've known.

Crying behind my eyes

Death does not terrify.

Even though I smile, I

Fight to stay strong. My mind

Goes back to that moment;

Hating my weakness

I regain control

Just for an hour,

Keep trying to stay clean but I

Love my pain, and I can't

Make things better since it seems

Nothing matters when you're not

Over the moon and across the sea.

Please help me, give me answers to

Questions I'll never ask.

Running from the demons

Saying I'll never be enough

That I'm worthless and I'm better off

Under six feet of earth;

Viva la bella muerte

Where all is undone and I am free on

Xis-- for I will never see

You again on this earth till

Zenith of my time has come.