Forgotten

"Every single day, at least one person dies. Some have a legacy, some are just...

Forgotten.

I never liked the concept of death, but it never stops me from thinking to it. I think about it everytime I go to sleep, everytime I wake up, everytime I watch another death on the news. It scares me beyond all hell.

Looking around, all that exists is everything. Plants, people, other animals. Life is so gorgeous, but it gets tainted by people that can't hear a voice, my voice. Calling at them to stop and appreciate what we have. But nobody listens to an easily forgotten voice.

Why is it that I want to be remembered so badly?

That's a really good question, one I ask myself every single day.

But right now, the reason I want to be remembered is so that my life had an impact. That I could make the world a better place. So, I have a few words to say.

To my best friend, Grace,

I hope that you find peace with who you are. I know that you're impatient, but things will get better for you, it takes time and love. So, don't be afraid to ask for it.

To my older brother, Damien,

I miss you, we all miss you. Mom especially, she hasn't put down a bottle of alcohol since the day you died, I hope there's an afterlife. You truely deserve peace.

To my younger sister, Ally,

I love you, more than anything in the world. Don't you ever think for a second that you're a bad person, I don't know who you're going to be in the future. But I know you'll make me proud.

To Mom,

I don't expect you to care, but I care about you. When I was younger you'd tell me stories about these heroes who would face their fears and conquer them. I wanted to be a knight, so that I could protect us from anybody that could possibly harm us. But ten year old can't really enroll in the army instead of their older brother. If you can, please stop drinking, if not for me, for Ally. She looks up to you like I once did, I want her to be happy. I want her to think the first three years of her life is all a bad dream.

To all the people I've loved, I want to say:

"Please don't forget me"

Sincerely,

A person trying to make a difference," I said, pushing myself from the railling of the bridge. My heart rate picked up as I fell towards the cold water, tears were flooding out of my eyes. I'm terrified, but I made my choice.

I can't go back.