Judas Kiss (my betrayal)

I confess (weakly) to you, what I could not, should not, say to others.

Though (I confess) at times, my confession is false, deceiving myself (yourself) and all others involved.

Because (anemically) I cannot look into my heart, to pull out the arrows (stuck fast) stained livid with your blood, and give them back to you.

If I could carve out (this stone) my heart, I would lay it on your altar (I would ) in return for the truth I owe.

But (cross myself) I just leave with the absurdity.

There will be no sacrifice today.