Lucidity

some people say they have lucid dreams

but my dreams are hardly clear.

they are jumbled like my words.

sometimes i repeat repeat myself or

i skip word or two.

welcome to the opposite of a lucid dream

it's jumbled and confused.

sometimes i forget caps

or I Use Too Many.

It all depends on my mood,

changing with the hour.

am I bipolar, don't know.

I've never been tested.

I wish I could see in lucidity

see the clear blue sky and the

turquoise water.

but my sight is like my thoughts

i see to much, i can't make sense of it.

here, in my blank page, i find a special kind

of chaos that is almost like

disorderly lucidity.

I can see the words in my mind,

one at a time.

writing is my lucid dream.

i might see clearer when

i'm dreaming of the imagined places

all existing on a blank page.

see, writing

is the one place where my monsters

have a form.

so i can see them clearly.

in writing, i have enough of lucidity

to fill an ocean or sink a cruise ship.

writing is my clarity. lets me see a bit clearer

so why don't i just

take a long look at this

piece so maybe

some lucidity will find it's way

into me.