To have it all

I feel as if I’m caught in a balancing act.

One misstep and it’ll all come crashing down.

That’s the thing about starting from nothing,

you have nothing to lose.

Then you build yourself up.

Little by little.

Step by step.

Until you’re past the point of no return.

No turning back.

You’re on top of the world.

Of course the fall is always the worst from the top.

“No don’t think of that right now.”

Just do the same thing you’ve always done.

It’s all routine.

And you’ve gotten good at it.

Lots of practice.

It’s all a balancing act.

No end in sight.

Through it all.

Cramps.

boredom.

Careful.

Careful.

Oops!

And that’s when it all comes crashing down.

You lose one and the rest will follow.

Crumbling like old ruins.

It’s over.

Hours of work gone.

“God I hate dominoes.”

Oh well. Time to start again.