Someone to lose

He was my pain and sorrow,

the one thing that kept me waiting for tommorow,

he smiled and I’ve never been so afraid,

I thought i’ll only watch but by my side he stayed,

I tried, I tried to escape but I looked in his eyes and it was much too late,

around him, there was something that won’t open , something like a gate,

but I was naive so I looked through what wouldn’t open for me,

I had hoped, a sin to my fate, but I still hoped, that he’d give me the key,

our eyes crossed through the thin openings of the gate surrounding his social class,

And that was the start of his end, since our love can only shatter like falling glass,

Only if, only if these two words never had to come out,

only if regret hadn’t been the word my fate loved to shout,

first love, a purity, so it started out but two sides can only clash,

it was beautiful, it was horrible, and like lightning it passed in a flash,

and like our love that passed so fast, so did his life,

from my side, opposing his, someone threw the knife,

stabbing, killing, and destroying his entity,

stabbing, killing, and destroying his reality,

no more can I watch that smile,

no longer will this life be worthwhile,

I miss being afraid of losing him,

I miss holding the hand that showed with love we were brim,

but now no longer here,

its not purity but a tear,

a tear being the outcome of him and I,

he was comfort now our love is said to be a lie,

may it be so I’ll be next in line,

so my love, wait for me, my life is no longer mine,

with no will to avoid the destination he has come to,

I‘ll let them take my life so to make this breakthrough,

I hope we meet in the after world, him and I.