Look at Me
'Here Dad! Look! I drew you a picture!'
He sits at his desk rubbing his brow
He stops,
Looks at me.
'Show me.' he says and I beam loudly,
Passing him my paper.
'It's a picture of us'
'Who's this one then?'
'That's mum.'
He stops
Looks at me
My beaming is bottled as I see his cloudy face
'What's wrong?'
'Nothing. Nothing. It's very good.'
My smile appears again and I skip off
To join my teddys at the school I made.
I emerge from my room, school backpack on,
Shoes tight and stiff with the smell of new leather.
He stops
Looks at m
'Show me.' he says and I give a little spin.
'I'm a big girl now!'
'Let's look then.'
I stand against the wall, he makes a scratch with a pen.
He stops
Looks at me
His cheeks are wet, sparkling with tears
'What's wrong?'
'Nothing possum.'
My smile appears to mirror his
Wiping his face, he pens 'First Day at School'
I emerge from my room, my hair all done up
Face all made and ready to go
He stops
Looks at me
'Show me.' he says, I give a small sigh,
Take him to the door where we greet the poor boy,
Standing there in his stiff shirt, tie a little awry..
His eyes say enough, this boy is a good one.
He stops
Looks at me
His eyes are tinged with fear
"What's wrong?''
'Nothing. Nothing. Have a nice night.'
My smile spreads and I promise to be home by ten.
He sees me walk away,
hand in hand with some other boy,
down the garden path-
A twinge of fear, as he sees him,
Stop
Look at me
Our eyes meet and I beam,
not for Dad, and he feels a little sad.
He knows I'll leave soon,
he can't hold me forever.
Stop.
Please look at me...
My little girl,
once so vulnerable
but now she blooms,
without me.