Still here

Cold hits my skin as the chilling wind catches my long hair. It leaves my neck exposed and a chill runs through my body as the trees shiver beneath the wind and the leaves crunch beneath my feet. Everything seems stronger today, the silence is too loud and the sky is too dark, even the cold, and the wind, I fear might shatter me with a simple blow but maybe it’s his absence that leaves an empty void inside my heart.

The trees stretch as far as my vision can see and only a few beams of light penetrate through the leaves in the dark. I wrap my arms around myself and continue to move my feet. Branches snap and leaves crunch but the silence doesn’t seem to be broken.

As I continue walking, a small clearing comes into view, and there, the moon shines it’s beautiful light upon the dark and all I can think is him. I see his skin, so pale beneath the moonlight and I see his eyes, a deep and fascinating sea in which drowned way too many times. Tears well up in my eyes and soon, they wet my cheeks leaving a trail of emotion through my face.

I step into the clearing, the moonlight washing over my body.

“I love you...” The words leave my mouth in not more than a whisper and I know they’re not heard by anyone but they leave my lips before I can stop them.

Another cold wind blows against my body. It gets under my skin, to my bones down to my soul. I feel it. I feel it in my heart.

Leaves crunch again, a brach snaps and the wind blows again but this time, it carries something else. It carries a whisper, a voice lost in time, lost between the trees and the nights. It carries something I thought impossible, a dream, a wish.

“I love you too...”