theory of everything
god says he
has a plan for all of us.
i call bullshit on that motherfucker.
bullshit
because if fate
was the one who fucked up my head
and made melancholy my whore
that motherfucker should already be dead.
bullshit
because
who would spark a wildfire in their own backyard?
the answer lies in the burning of the good book:
no one owns the world.
there is no god.
there is no poetry.
this is not a sentence
and i would take the time to explain why,
but we're all dying.
nothing is what you think.
i would say
we are all made of stardust
but i don't want to make myself vomit.
if we are any part of the cosmos,
we are the detritus leftovers
that fall off of comets-
we are worthless.
i do believe
there's something bigger than all of us
but-
i'm well aware it might just be
the weight of the air we breathe.
i believe
that energy is conserved
that we are all made of matter
that gravity will be the death of me-
but there is no theory of everything.
i have been bleeding
for five years.
i walk around with
red hands
yet no one asks about my fingers.
i have carefully carried my guts
in mason jars,
only to spill them
on paper.
no one has helped me clean up
the mess i've made of myself.
so i will spell god with a lowercase g
and no one can stop me
because there is no saving grace.
i vow to shit on the bible.