Alone

My whole body screams with pain as it is aching to release the pain inside. I often feel alone in this world. Like no one understands me or no one knows what i'm going through. I don't tell people what I feel or what's going on. I just tell my cat or god. I know stupid right? Anyways, the real reason why I don't share my thoughts or feelings with the world, is because i'm afraid of what they'll say. I've been called crazy and stupid before. I've been told to shut up, or that I need some fresh air, I need sleep or it's nothing. They think it's a joke. They think i'm kidding or as if it's an act. They ignore it. This is why I don't share anything anymore and believe me, it kills me because i'm the type of person that's not afraid to speak my mind. Not afraid of what people think of me. Or at least i used to not be afraid. But now I am because i've been turned down and hurt before so many times. And I feel like there's a lot of people out there that are afraid. And it's ok to be afraid. Just know that there are people out there who you CAN trust and confide in. You just have to be patient and look.