Attached

The first time I say your beautiful chocolate face I fell in love. Not because of your beauty but because of the aurora that surrounded you. You glowed, and the twinkle in your eye reminded me of myself from years ago. Your beautiful smile, that was recently perfected by braces brought on butterflies. And when we made eye contact I felt like I was staring in the eyes of my soulmate.

I can't have you. I never could. it was just a bunch of unspoken feelings that I got whenever you were around. I stalk your social media just to get a glimpse of you, to hear your voice and see that smile. And when I finally got the courage to tell you how I feel it only made you more distant.

You say that we are friends, and that you feel what I feel. But it's complicated. And I know this. Shit, it's mainly on me. I'm like the forbidden fruit but why would I be as stupid as to give up something for someone who treats people like shit.

When we are together and Im faded im ready to risk it all. But I have to be smart. Because I know it's only a game to you. I feel like you play people but you replied “not you”. Your words made my heart flutter but your actions say otherwise.

Im loved but this attachment I have on you makes me question myself, my sexuality, my marriage and my sanity. You like to treat me like i'm everyone else. But if you let me show you. I could be just what you need.

Maybe in a different life? A different time? A different age. But all I know is I can't get you out of my head.

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