I Waited So Long

I waited so long

and you didn't come

I was so all alone

I was so very young

but as old as I am

I still fail to see

how my own mom

could forget about me

you didn't call me

why didn't you know?

that I would be waiting

and time goes so slow

all through the day

every time a car passed

sitting there by the window

my heart would beat fast

I'd be so disappointed

and torn with my fears

when each car wasn't you

I'd be holding back tears

it kept getting harder

every hour spent this way

but I faithfully sat there

'til the end of the day

my chest would be aching

when I finally gave up

another day wasted

more trauma to stuff

and to keep the emotion

tucked neatly inside

reminding myself

all I had was my pride

and the dignity of

an emotionless face

struggling for control

'til I reached my own space

Where I could let out

in private, the pain

squeezing out of my eyes

down my face like hot rain