Monsters

Laying in bed countless hours of the night

The monsters are no long under my bed

But instead, inside my head

More terrifying then ever before

This time it’s not something a check under the bed can fix, or a nightlight, or a kiss goodnight

They just don’t want to leave

I try to kill them with medication

With no success my bad habits resurface

Trying to kill them by cutting, drinking, starving

Anything to feel a little better and have control

Maybe if I destroy myself they will go too