In Conversation with myself

When all is quiet and

I hear the crickets chirp tonight.

I close my eyes and think about

All the wonderful things I have achieved in life.

All those insignificant accomplishments

that had once seemed so far away.

All the impossible Everests appear anthills

when I look down from the top today.

Why is it that the finish line

seems to be forever racing ahead.

That whenever we achieve a goal in life

We fix our focus on something new instead.

The human soul forever

remains an insatiable beast.

With the greed and envy

Constantly fueling its daily feasts.

The ever-present human condition

to covet the assets and good fortune of others.

To never find solace in basking in today’s glory

instead always yearning for futures out further.

Is it possible to tame this voracious beast?

To seek a momentary interlude?

And just for an infinitesimal moment

be free from my soul’s internal feud?

A brief hiatus, if you may,

of the soul, body and mind.

To enjoy, escape, be swept away

if only for a fleeting moment in time.

And would it be possible to escape

this peaceful, temporary state of pleasure?

When the endorphins kick in,

will I no longer wish to fight and persevere?

How much of an effort will it be

to leave the comfort of the winner’s circle?

To revert from resident back to vagabond,

ready to face life’s new bumps and hurdles?

Will I just give in to the contentment,

and simply let go?

When a new horizon beckons,

will I have the courage to simple say “No”?

Can I really find a balance between

opposing virtues of restlessness and complacency?

To do adequate justice to both,

Is it, Can It, WILL IT be a possibility?

My eyes snap open

as I go from R.E.M. to awake

For a casual nighttime musing

This is way too heavy an internal debate.

Fortunately, a cup of warm milk soothes

my troubled stomach and mind.

No more Papa John’s for midnight snacking

I have learnt my lesson tonight.