I feel bad about it

when you act the way that people say you are acting differently today-

you know, that kind of way-

the way that makes your own blood curl-

at self reflection-

and utter internal thought upon insight-

you wonder-

upon a new thought-

why you are trying to make yourself feel bad-

for being something else-

than the you that they were used to-

as you are entitlted to be a different “you”-

if you are feeling a new way-

that’s okay-

but its almost laughable to you-

at times-

and as it returns like the tide-

pulling into a new thought again-

sometimes it isn’t always nice-

it may return to-

I am the one thats the monster-

or-

I am the one that’s causing a situation-

but that may or may not be me-

and maybe I am too tired-

when it all adds up-

and then is just seen as a lot