Addicted

He comes with full intention of seeing her and I take part of that for my own selfish ways.

Whenever I am by his side

I get high on his cologne

That special cologne he put on just for her

I get drunk on his smile

The one that only exists when he's with her

I lust to be near him

Even to only stand by his side

I yearn to be in, if only, the same room has him.

I know it's not right and I should let go of something- someone who could cause only disaster in the end but I'm addicted to everything about him.

I'm in too deep. There's no going back.

I'm not sure I want to...

Is that bad? Perhaps.

Yes he brings me such pleasure but I'm guilty of it because I know it's not right. But I can't help myself. I try to stop but that just seems to hurt more and I hate myself for saying so because I know how selfish that is, to not want to stop because it hurts me when if I were to continue it would only hurt the ones I love. But I'm addicted to everything about him...I'm in too deep...and there's no going back...