Steel Beam on My Heart

I have to let go, but how does control let go? That large steel beam sitting heavy on my heart, I can’t remove it!

It’s weight crushing me.

Control! Control!

Why do you grip me so!

I need release. I need the steel beam lifted, lifted by the crane operated by God.

He hears me, he sees me, he feels the pain intricately as it crushes me.

But he leaves it there.... why?? Why?

It hurts so.

He is building a relationship tower, one of steel.

My beam will be the last one placed to finish the project.

But it takes time.

I get it.

Will I survive till it’s removed and the tower built?

Or will I push it off myself and run.... far away.