Terrible

I’m a terrible human being

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My biggest goal is to defile you

To the point that no matter how hard you scrub your skin, the parts I’ve laid my hands on sting the most

Smoldering fever pitch to make you shiver in your bathtub

To the point that when you go to bed at night, you’ll be rolling around at 3AM aching for my presence

Go ahead, bite your pillow in frustration— I’ll turn you into an insomniac

To the point that when something reminds you of the slightest bit of me, you won’t be able to handle it

You’ll have me on speed dial begging for me to sprint over, crawl if I have to

Don’t make me laugh

Just your hands won’t be enough

Nothing else will be

Will you be able to eat properly? Think properly? Live properly?

I’m a terrible human being

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But you, you’re worse than me

Because you think what I’m doing isn’t disgusting

Because you keep showing up after pushing me away

Because you left your spare key on my bed

Because you’re a professional liar

Because you want to do the same

Because when I pretend to be asleep, I hear your little whispers

Because when you think I’m not looking, I see your little grin

Because you let me

Because

You want me to do these things to you

And more

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You left the rules blank on purpose

I’m only playing along in your perverse game

You thought you had the upper hand

But it’s obvious there’s no winner

Since neither of us are going anywhere

...

After all, we’re terrible human beings