For a second

It was cold from the start.

The hallways, my heart

Aching, yearning, feeling the burden of

still here, still me

breathing out a sigh

everytime.

Praying for something

but

empty hands get filled with

pencils and paperwork.

The flurry makes me

quietly stroll through

passive days, restless nights

lonely cries, reckless bourbon flights.

Self hatred and all my scars leaving

stains on my skin, from where I've been.

Tossing and turning sideways in the

morose crypt that my mind was always in.

All day, all night with

no visitors in sight.

Losing hope as the light in the sky

recedes, leaving me to

try to make something out of nothing

running

always running.

But I can only ascend when

the high doesn't die.

But what if when

it goes, I go?

But then...

I saw you. You smiled.

and in a second

the sun warmed my skin and

I could feel it's

tender embrace

banish all the bad parts of me.

Suddenly you saw me and

I was loved.

I was bright.

And it all looked so much better

in the light.

In a second I was

a beautiful me.

Free from the past

just accepted and seen

for the person I always wanted to be.

You smiled

and there it was.

Sheer bliss and me

in the same room, finally.

Happy and free.