Not Dead Yet

I’m on and off. I should be on, but I have off, but I’m putting in an effort. full force. Spending hours Putting time. each day, multiple hours. I want to learn something. I need to start. I really want to start asking for help. I have a hard time asking for help. I always felt like I can’t. I don’t have the right. But I think the problem is I have the same problem. Should I drop or should I keep going? Should I break? Sometimes I feel. Other times I don’t. I need… I need… I need... more. I need… family... friends...help. They're not gonna judge me? They just want to help me? Especially, me. My little brother- all the things he does- brings me joy. I moved away, I miss him. But moving...one step closer... improving who I am. Who I wanna be. My little brother- see that I am trying- see I am trying for you and myself.

This piece was inspired by a video my brother posted. Feel free to comment and critique him: https://youtu.be/BOxDTrWnKdU i am sure he'd enjoy the feedback. He's got an artist soul just like the rest of us. I just hope he can nurture it.