I Have to Believe (X)

I have to believe,

That after all the bad things I,

And the people I love,

Have suffered,

Eventually,

We will get the good we deserve.

Trying to heal myself,

Is like building a sandcastle,

On that portion of sand,

Where the waves take what they deserve,

Every time,

They make their way,

Up the beach.

The waves take something,

Every time they visit,

Like the taxes of a government,

On its people.

But I have to believe,

There will be good,

For all the bad I have had.

I can’t bear to believe,

That life is just bad,

And that it will never get better.

I have to believe in karma,

Because I fear,

What I would do,

If I didn’t.

I believe in karma,

Because it means,

I will have enough good,

To tip the scales,

In my favor.

I have to believe the scales,

Can be balanced.

If I believe they can’t be,

If I truly believe that,

It means I must stop hoping.

I have to believe in karma,

Because if I didn’t,

I would give up.