It wasn’t just me

Dear Diary

It wasn’t just me. I left my things in my locker and Seth walked towards me. Only thing is, that wasn’t Seth. I mean I knew that was Seth, his huge smile was unmistakable and his eyes were as bug-eyed as ever. But his red hair was long and it flowed down until it was at elbow length. It impossible to ignore softer features and his airy voice.

Then out of nowhere, came Oak. He also looked different but he just as unmistakable. His long narrow nose and dimples couldn’t possibly belong to anyone else, and yet they did. Like Seth his hair was inanely long and his features were finer. But what stunned me most was that Oak’s deep and gravelly voice was replaced by a high-pitched thin voice. Seth and Oak talked to me about the usual things we talked about sports, our crazy ideas and girls. Well we didn’t talk about girls, we talked about boys. I mean we were definitely talking about the girls but Seth and Oak weren’t describing them as girls. I was dumbstruck. I actually didn’t know what to do. Suddenly Seth punched me in the arm and pointed towards the end of the hall. Samantha was walking towards me with her usual smirk. As always, she was beautiful, except like Seth, Like Oak and like me, she had changed. I’m not going to describe it this time, she was unquestionably a guy. But that didn’t stop me from wanting her except I wanted her in a different way. Before today, every time I saw Sam, I just wanted her, but today I felt sick. My stomach felt jittery.

Sam stopped in from of me and ran her fingers through my long jet-black hair. She leaned and kissed me on the cheek then walked away. It felt strange that it felt good. Sam was a guy and I like girls, but that didn’t stop me from enjoying it. It definitely didn’t stop Seth and Oak from enjoying it. Almost instantly they both started giggling. I told them to shut up and we headed towards class. As always, I sat in the middle of the classroom with both Seth and Oak on either side of me. Class started as usual and me and my buddies talked the entire time. It felt different but absolutely nothing had changed. Well…everything changed but for a split second it felt like it didn’t. I mean, my friends were the same and the people around me were the same, I was the same. The only thing that changed were our genitals.

I realized how easy it was, that is, until I felt strange. I started feeling uncomfortable in my lower stomach. I decided to ignore it but then I started feeling dizzy and even slightly nauseated. Class ended and I went to the bathroom. For some reason, my underwear was drenched. Did I pee myself? I don’t get it. I reached down and my hands were stained with blood. I let out a scream which almost made Oak drop his compact. He told me to relax and passed me some sort of cottony material shaped like a giant plaster. I went to the bathroom and almost threw up when I saw my underwear. Seth asked me to hurry up and I almost lost it. How in god’s name was I supposed to hurry up when one of the holes from my body was leaking blood. I didn’t even have this hole yesterday but I took care of my business and left the bathroom with Seth and Oak. I wasn’t feeling well. I had to change the big plaster stuck to my underwear every three hours and I wasn’t okay with that. I was over it. I was over being a girl.