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My Guardian Angel

Why don't you leave me alone? Were you not given a chance to be anything else? Are you just stuck with me? It makes sense. I wondered why you never showed up to anything. You're never there when I need you. Yesterday the boys in my class were pulling my hair again and I prayed to you. Why didn't you make them stop? My mom told me that every little girl has a guardian angel. Did you not want me? I know you're there. I can't see you or hear you, but I feel you all the time. Then I realized, you don't do anything except wait. Obviously they didn't give you to me for no reason. Did they give you to me or ...was I given to you? My life doesn't mean anything to you does it? But you're still here. Why? You don't speak. You don't do anything. You just wait. You wait untill I'm ready or at least until you think I'm ready. What happens when you're done with me? No answer? Fine. At least when you get rid of me I'll get rid of you. Will you die one day? Are there others like you? Do we each get one angel or is it just you guarding all of us? You don't really guard do you? You kinda just take. Do you feel ashamed? There's another word for what you are. It's the same word the television man uses when the bad men force people away to heaven. Is that not what you do? Force people to go to heaven? What if people aren't ready? You don't care do you? Why aren't you kind? It's not kind to take things from people? What happened? Why are you doing this? Stop. I'm not ready. Please. I'm scared.

I wish you could die.