I’m Sorry I am a Terrible Friend

I forgot how much,

I missed you.

I'm sorry.

It isn't that,

You are not worth remembering;

No, never that.

It is simply that I,

Have had so much,

On my mind,

That I forgot to remember,

To miss you.

I'm sorry.

I have been a terrible friend.

It's just that,

I was focused on mental health,

And school,

And him,

And them.

Those are no excuse.

There isn't one really.

I looked at the date today,

And I just looked.

Suddenly,

As I stared at it,

The memory,

That had been sneaking up on me,

Hit me very hard,

On the head.

And though I never remember birthdays,

I remembered,

That yours was tomorrow.

Though,

I suppose,

Tomorrow is now today,

Because I have a very bad tendency,

To stay up too late.

Really,

I am sorry.

I had forgotten hom much,

I loved you.

After all,

We have been friends,

For about six years now.

I miss you,

And I love that I had the decency,

To remember you.

I am sorry,

I didn't have the decency,

To do it earlier.

I haven't seen you,

In such a long time,

My friend.

But I am so excited.

If all goes as planned,

I will see you tomorrow!

You mean so much to me.

I have wondered,

In the months we have been apart,

How you have been.

But we have had little contact,

So you were not at the front,

Of my mind.

I have missed you,

And I am glad,

I will get to see you.

I want nothing more to give you a hug,

And to make sure,

There is never a lapse,

In our communication,

Such as this one,

Again,

If I can help it.