Stress, and Bad Time Management

What is going on in my mind?

Here I am,

Asking the important questions.

I feel like there hasn't been much.

Just an excess of stress,

Over things I cannot control.

Assignments,

Things I have to do.

My mind's inability to do what it needs to do,

When I need it to do it.

Stress over the things,

I don't have time to do,

Because I am focusing too much,

On other things.

Sleep,

Excercise,

Socializing.

I have tried to push off the things,

I need to do,

For the things that make me happy,

But that fills my mind,

With even more with stress.

It's hard to find a balance.

There has to be time somewhere,

Right?

I guess,

What I need to do,

Is to focus less on living,

And more on survival.

But that removes the value from my life.

If I am not living,

Why do I bother to breathe?

It's a little like trying to find a balance,

Using scales,

That started out,

Uneven.

It's not impossible to balance them;

It's just kind of frustrating.

I wanted to be able to do everything,

But I already figured out that that wasn't working.

So I cut down on the amount of things in my life.

But still,

I struggle.

Does it make me weak,

That I still have to work hard,

Just to juggle,

The most minimal amount,

Of work?

It shouldn't.

But I feel like it does.

Replacing a challenge,

With something that requires no effort.

And replacing something impossible,

With things I have already done.

Does it make me weak,

That I struggle to handle even this?

I am so stressed,

Just by the amount of things I have,

Even if the things I have,

Don't particularly require,

Any effort.

I don't know.

I guess,

It's just something I need to think about.

I just need a better way,

To manage the happenings of my life.

But I can't continue,

Now.

I am sacrificing sleep,

To write this.