For the first time

in so many months

I left my room

my beloved bed

Everything is so terrifying

the sunshine

these people

the wind

Every second I feel as if I'm

about to burst into tears

Every movement I make is

so cautious and subtle

I miss my room

I want to go back

and hide forever

but they said I can't

they told me I need to go out

they said it would help me

they promised I'd be safe

they promised I'd feel better

well I'm out now

and I feel like dying