Beast
when
I ceased being me
and reduced to the sadness inside me
I never realised
when
the whirlpool of despair
it chased me everywhere
now rested at the base of my lungs
defined
my nature
suffocated
my thoughts
claimed (the anthropoid)
my head
restless
shell of a human
threatened and threatening
it won or I did
either way
I was already lost
drowning
letting go
it felt good
for a moment
then beat of my heart
longing for air
under the blue
I emerged
I was always more
than a beast
a beast