boy?

losing my mind cause im so god damn alone

a single person to turn to and nowhere to call “home”

what the hell brought you here?

i never let my heart get too far away

but i love too hard for the ones who only ​take

take me for granted, leave when they’re done because im the fucking toy,

i never was a person

how could you let me rely on you?

never trusted me but made me trust you

you’re unstable, you’re reckless. . .

to be fair, i always knew you’d never care.

i attract the ones who love abuse.

fuck with my head till my mind feels loose

knowing that i wear my heart on my sleeve,

you made it seem like you were afraid ​i’d be the one to leave

turned my own emotions into a game of torment.

what if i don’t want to play?

if i didn’t want it, i wouldn’t beg you to stay

im only here for your amusement

you pull me in and hold me close

when i open my eyes you’ve let me go.

it’s only a fucking fantasy

love’s just a dream

im so (so so so) ​good enough

but you’ll never get to see

you’ll never let me be

me

blame me for the drug problem

tell me it was all my fault

let your words tear me apart

it won’t hurt

your hands

left

burning scars

don’t look at me with lust

you can’t have my body

as many times as you ​took​ it,

it was never yours

that’s why

im the bad guy.

tell me i cause his suicidal wishes

tell me he can’t do what you did

god, i hope not.

i don’t wanna cry because hates me.

i don’t want to feel like a waste.

that is all that you gave me.

have fun getting fucked up

pretending for the world that you’re not hurt

you hide because you’re afraid

im on top

i beat you at your own motherfucking game.

maybe i feel too much

it makes me blind

but my walls are up, ive had enough

you get the wounds this time.