sunshine

a smile

trembling

on my face

hard fought

hard won

i can't help

but feel relief

because i've remembered

that normal is possible

only two days on the meds

just placebo, i know

but damn

i am grateful

for the lie

sunlight

hits my face

tears

roll down my cheeks

and i cry

not from panic

or fear

but because

i am happy

even for just

a split second.