to the ones left behind-

i'm sorry i couldn't catch you

i'm sorry you had to fall

i know we're all told

that we can't save everyone

but i still feel

so responsible.

i'm an idiot who makes promises she knows she can't keep.

wades in until i'm waist deep

prays to whatever is above

that you'll have mercy on me

for breaking trust

and love.

hugging you tightly

i promised i'd always be there

but i'm an unintentional liar.

not your fault,

i promise,

because it feels to me so much like it's mine

that i can't imagine you don't feel the same.

but i had to step away

walk away

stay away.

save myself

then maybe save you.