How Can I?

At first it was just because of how cold my bed was. I shift around to warm up but it never stays for long.

  Then came the fact about how cramped my legs felt, I move around to make room, but it barely helps.

    After a while I started to smell my mother's cooking trying to wake me from my slumber, I turn around pressing my face into my pillow to block out the smell.

    It was starting to get on my nerves about how dark my room was, but I’ve always slept in the dark before? But just for tonight, I wish I had a light on.

    I feel a bit lonely sleeping alone, then I wonder if my sister or mother could sleep with me tonight? I’m starting to feel very lonely here.

   Then there was the sound of people talking, a few laughing but mostly crying. Don’t they know I’m trying to sleep?

   Lastly, I can’t sleep because I’m already dead.