Eff It All
“Eff this”,
I say.
“Eff it all.”
Then I check my grades.
All F’s,
As I asked for.
"No!"
I say.
"This isn't what I wanted!"
I just...
Wanted a second,
A moment,
A day,
To breathe.
To hold my head out of water.
Now look what I've done.
Would you like me to apologize,
Because I wanted to feel,
Less like a pie crust,
Rolled out,
Thinner and thinner?
Do you really want me to apologize?
"Sorry I didn't do that assignment."
I say.
"I was trying to stay sane."
I say.
"I just wanted to sleep for the first time in a week."
"I promise it won't happen again."
I say.
Do you want me to apologize?
Have you seen the state I'm in?
Aren't I sorry enough?
No?
Well,
Eff this,
Then.
"I'm done."
I say.
"I can't do this anymore."
"Eff it all."
I can't be what you want me to.
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