Broken, fucked up child

I never wished to be a mother

so it’s you who’ll have to suffer

all my fuckups and my pain

and for all of this

it’s you I’ll blame

For my ignorance,

is innocence

your innocence I’ll steal

Broken, fucked up left to suffer

And alone you’ll have to heal

Feel my presence

No, my absence

For I wished not for this life

Hear my drug-fueled rage

You broken, fucked up child

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I never wished to be a father

So I abdicate that throne

And with mommy on her pills

You’ll have to battle life alone

For between us

I’m the victim

Cause I just couldn’t pull out

Now instead of rising up

I’ll hide my face and cry and pout

And I’ll spaz out

(forgot to mention)

For you know I cannot bear

This reality, without her

and the one with you in there

I always loved your mommy more

but I loved most all the drugs

So instead of holding you

I’ll hide and chase the hidden bugs