The Heart Wants What It Wants

the heart wants what it wants,

what a demisable phrase

such vivid truth,

there is no such thing as mind over matter

love blocks out good judgement,

conflicting choices encompassed by impulse

i look sadness in the face and i dive head first

but i don’t know how to swim

i give in for the happiness,

but it’s only temporary

it’s always temporary

even the good things crash and burn in the end

i haven’t learned how to let go,

so the feelings linger and resurface

i know that you’re bad for me,

but my heart aches to sleep next to you

i long to hear your laugh,

i would die to be yours again

we’ve been apart almost as long as we were together, why does my heart still belong to you?

maybe i let myself get too attached?

maybe it was the fact that you were able to lift my heart out of the bottomless pit it had fallen into

maybe it was the way your eyes lit up when you looked at me?

no one had ever looked at me like that before

maybe it was your dimples,

the most beautiful smile i have ever seen

it kills me that it’s over,

and i know that there’s no hope for us anymore

i’m so in love with you,

it’s everything about you

i miss you,

i miss us

i’ve tried moving on,

but nobody compares to you

i don’t know how not to love you

and the problem isn’t that i’m alone,

or maybe it is

i lost my myself when i lost you,

and i don’t know how to find myself again