The Sun Won’t Rise
The sun didn't rise today.
A sunrise represents hope,
New beginnings,
Shining a light on the darkness.
I didn't get that today.
I got a car ride,
Filled with yelling.
I got a stitch ripper,
Tearing violently at the seams,
Of my sanity.
I got sharp,
Dark glass,
Shoved into the cracks,
Of my already-broken heart.
If the sun had risen,
Perhaps the glass,
Would have glittered.
Perhaps I would have been able,
To avoid it.
But it wasn't the first time.
I really should have expected it.
She didn't tell me a thing,
I didn't already know.
"No one wants you around," She said.
"No one wants to be around someone so mean."
"I know." I said.
"Don't you think I know that?"
She twists the glass,
Widening the cracks,
Sun getting lower,
Behind the horizon.
"Are you sure you know? Who told you? Because someone needs to."
"Leave me alone." I say,
Holding back the tears.
"Everyone would be better off without you. Every time I see you,
It ruins my mood, and my entire day, completely."
"Please, leave me alone."
I'm begging.
Tears are froming,
As she rips out the glass,
Leaving me to bleed out.
"You always treat me like crap. You're the reason my life sucks."
I sob at her words,
The sun retreating further and further,
With each tear,
Because it is not meant to bear my pain.
"LEAVE ME ALONE!!!" I scream wildly.
"Can't you see this is a manipulative relationship?"I demand,
Through the ocean,
Pooling beneath my eyes.
"No, it's not. It's not my fault you get in my car, and are mean to me."
She goes on.
The car is filled with insults.
Rip.
She removes another stitch,
Taking me apart.
She stabs me again,
With each new word she says.
"Leave me alone."
"Leave me alone."
"leave me alone."
Trailing off into silent tears,
My pain putting out,
The sky's great light.
The car stops at school,
And she is still going.
Tears still falling,
I get out,
Managing only a strong,
"Fuck you!"
As I slam the door.
I walk to class,
My head down.
I don't want them to see my pain.
But they see it anyway.
She left the knife,
Resting in my heart.
My heart throbs,
Off and on,
All throughout the day.
The sun will not rise today.