To the ones I love

To the ones I love and who love me,

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I can't be who you wanted me to be. I don't want to let you all down - but I don't know how much longer I can do this. Every smile I give takes a piece of my heart with it. I don't want to leave you all behind, but I don't know how I can live here.

I wish I knew how to decide - I've been standing on the precipice for so long, it feels like home.

I'm sorry I can't be the perfect daughter, sister, friend.

I want to be, but I don't know how.

I wish…

I wish I wasn't who I am.

But I am. And I'm sorry.

Love, me