Times LIke These

It’s times like these that make me question

Question why I feel this way

Question why I chose this path

I don’t understand why the pain is so strong

The only thing I know is how to react to pain

In a negative way

To hurt

To cut

To feel pain that I feel on the inside show on the outside

To release the demons

The demons inside of me

I need a release that’s better for me

One that won’t ultimately kill me

One that will make me happy

One that will make me smile every single day

In times like these I need someone close

I need to feel loved

But it’s the opposite

I feel like shit

I feel worthless

And maybe I am worthless

But that doesn’t mean I’m not worth saving

In times like these I wanna disappear

I don’t wanna exist

I wanna be gone

So don’t miss me

And if you do I’m sorry