over&over&over&
i want to sleep
but i can’t sleep a wink
do i need a shrink?
thinking in thoughts and lines
i need to take some time
off
i need to find an escape
a vacation
i need to find a way
to look away
i’m a castaway
stuck in the sea of my own thoughts
i’m on a dilapidated piece of wood
i’m on an iceberg in the middle of a flood
of thoughts
i’ve failed
now i’m drowning
in words
in thoughts
in letters
in colors
all mixing
i’m missing
the point of this madness
the end and beginning
is deliberately ditching me
i’m in the middle of nowhere
stuck
somewhere
out there
in there
my own brain
i can’t control
my feelings are all distraught
i’m caught in a knot
i’ve ought
to figure out that help is naught
i bought
myself into this mess
i’m a mess
in distress
call the ambulance
call the doctor
i need
to be looked after
because left alone
i’m like a dog
a stray
lost and wandering,
wondering
wanting
needing
some sort of help but receiving
none; nothing
because i’m nothing
i’m nothing
i’m nothing
n o t h i n g.
i need to stop thinking.