After Us (There’s Only Me)

Oh lover, why did we begin?

We knew we were designed to end.

But it was so easy to hold you -

To love you.

What did we do to deserve our fates?

Now we’re at the end of us,

And darling, it feels like tragedy.

What else could describe my agony?

Oh beloved, we fought so hard.

By the end our knuckles were bloodstained -

Our hearts were bruised -

Perhaps we created our own casualties.

After all, we couldn’t fight fate.

So we fought each other,

Until there was nothing left to love.

But your bittersweet kiss still lingers

Against my lips,

Down the columns of my spine.

I feel echoes of you in my bones,

Leaving remnants of your affection.

I can still sense the warmth of your embrace,

Long after you have left my side.

What a fool I am lying awake,

Basking in misery from your memory.

Do you even remember,

What it was like to hold me -

To love me?

Please tell me lover,

How do I move on from you?

I am still waiting for time

To erase the lingering memories of you.

But until it does I will hold my sorrow,

Like you once held me.

Perhaps someday I will not call to you,

But lover today is only the first step I take

To rebuild the peace you took from me.

Oh lover we had to end didn’t we?

We must have been calamities

To make way for something new.

We always felt the truth didn’t we?

Between each kiss,

Each caress,

Tell me you could feel our hollowness too.

I know it was not easy to leave,

But you have always known what is right.

And even if it feels like agony

We have to - I have to - let go.

For all my efforts, I cannot erase you.

So I will remember holding you,

Loving you,

Losing you.

Until I can say goodbye.

And the next time I see you,

It will not hurt.

Because in our tragedy

We learned that we can love,

And we can move on.