Future... Maybe

Zaira. I don't know what it means. I don't care. I want to name my daughter Zaira. Maybe spelled with an X. I want my daughter to have a nickname and be able to shorten her name (a luxury I have never had). I want to torture daughter's teachers with her name that is hard to say. I want my daughter to be as beautiful as her name. I can't picture my child because children are foreign to me, but I picture Zaira as an adult who is similar to me in many ways but different in so many others.

I picture her being confident and a strong person (something I fear I will never be), but still being a loyal, sweet, nurturing individual. I imagine her patiently trying to explain to her peers how to say her name and explaining that her mother had a friend from Peru whose name was similar and who always made her happy. I imagine her telling people how her mom loves her name and sometimes is wandering around the house saying it because she loves it so much. Her mom's book characters are named after her and her siblings (because once you start, apparently you can't stop) even though they were written before they existed because her mom knew what she wanted. I can imagine my child, one day a grown-up, telling me she loves her name and asking for the millionth time how I came up with it.

I got curious and googled it so I would at least give my future offspring some accurate information about what it means (because what's a name without meaning?). Zaira means "dawning" in Italian, "rose" in Arabic, and "pilgrim" in Persian. I think that it means rose because my name means night rain, and if I can find a mate with a name that means morning dirt, I can say we grew our kid. I dunno, I have lame, complicated mom jokes. I know her name has nothing to do with the meaning and everything to do with a childhood friend whose name was really pretty and I always thought she was adorable (even though she hated being called that). I know my kid's name is also chosen because of yell-ability (because who doesn't like shouting at their kid just for the fuck of it) and that seems like a fun name to be shouting until one of us dies. Plus, I know that I may have punched my husband to have this name because theoretically, we have to agree to it.

But yeah, I love the name Zaira. I think it's amazing and I would love to name my daughter it because I love the name and think it is pretty. And if you are curious as to how to say it, it's like Kyra but it starts with a Z.