i tried to be your heroine, but now you’re just my heroin

i'm hooked on your wide eyes and you get hooked on your highs

shades of brown and gold light your dimming smile while hues of grey and blue ignite your eyes

i hate the drugs you smoke and the thought of the women that you see because one's been killing you and the other will kill me

i cannot stand the thought of your feet tempting that ledge

your cigarettes freestanding on the edge and a bottle in your hand

i know i can't save you from the drugs you've come to love but i wish i didn't tease that line with the taste of your lips still on my tongue

i can't fight the sleepless nights

you've been gone for a few weeks

there's puffy clouds beneath my

eyes as your puffs caress your cheeks

i've been shaking all evening with your name grating against my teeth but i'm afraid i'm confusing my need for love and your love for the need