Truth bomb

It’s true, you were!

And I was SO slow to arrive at the inescapable truth that we don’t work and that this is not a healthy relationship.

I never meant for things to get so out of control.

I have been so angry at you ..... mostly because it was much easier to focus on your inadequacies, to cast my blame and rage outside of myself.

My anger now replaced by a deep longing and silent sadness.

Letting go sounds so easy in theory but I just couldn’t. I’m sorry I persisted, clinging obsessively with both hands to something that was rotten on the inside.

You were my golden ticket,the means to end my empty void.

I was the broken promise of happiness and forever yours.

You were my favourite mistake and the hardest lesson I ever had to learn.

And perhaps....... the most important lesson?As I have been resurrected deep within and never again shall I be so trivial and wreckless when it comes to matters of the heart.