blackout

goddamn it

i'm scared of myself again

i'm afraid

i'm going to cave in

(part of me

can't wait to fall)

there's something

in the bottom

of a swimming pool

that pulls me towards

the deep end

(i want to give in)

i would give my all

for my last breath

(some nights i beg for death)

some nights i put up my fists

tell myself i can write my way out of this

use the pain as fuel

(i'm a fucking fool)