Fill Me

Warmth fills that hole he left

As I take another swig.

Poison dances on my tongue

And a self-deprecating

Smile spreads across my face.

Numbness outlines the circle,

And my liver mumbles

Sweet nothings to me again.

Doors are playing hopscotch

And music is making sense.

His image is fading as are memories,

Stupid thoughts and feelings,

Unobtainable wants and foolish desires.

Smiling stupidly, I finish happily

And watch myself blink as the sun

Comes up to watch over me.