Where do I begin??

Oh the years...

20 years of my 24 year abusive marriage I was a Pastors wife.

I used to say all the "pat" answers and cliches...

"God is blessing"..."I will pray for you"... "All things work together for good".... "God is in control"... "God works in mysterious ways"... "Everything works out for those who love the Lord"... "If God brought you to it, He will bring you through it"... "God never gives you more than you can handle".... "The devil is fighting"... "Our timing is not Gods timing".... "God decides when to call people home"... "God knows your heart"... "God blesses those who truly seek him"... "God helps those who help themselves"..."God knows your heart...(apparently so does Satan)"

I regret ever saying a single one of those pat cliche answers to people who really just wanted to be understood.

I Wish I had said, "God heals the sinner, but not the amputee"... "You create your own problems as well as the answer to your own problems" .... "You are what you think"... "You attract to you everything you fear or think is going to happen to you"...

Oh please...

PUKE!

Don't get me started on 24 fucking years of regret!