Flawless

I am perfect in every way imaginable. If I put my mind to it, I could become anyone I wish to be, a master in any field. For math I just need to memorize the formulas, to play an instrument I just need to practice it for a bit.

Nobody understands the world around me better than myself. While others lazily live their life with a blank stare and equally blank mind, I am a complex web of thoughts that will shine brighter than any star when the opportunity arises.

Don’t you also have that little voice in your heart that tells you all of this? Every single day it tries to assure me that I can achieve my goals with minimal effort. Every single day it tells me “You can rest now. You can work later”. These thoughts will only lead to my failure. No matter how much I wish to block them, they keep coming back. There is nothing I can do about them, I try my best to shut them up, I really do.

I don't understand why I am like this, and why I can't fix myself. I just hope to get better in the future.