A Bright new world part 7

(This has been edited as I accidentally missed the first two paragraphs. I’m really sorry about everything. I’m slowly learning how to balance my work life and other life situations because I don’t have time for me and my passions anymore and it honestly brings me down and I see what it is doing to other especially the ones I make wait and I’m sorry for that. I’m struggling to do the right things because I don’t know what they are. I need to sit down and make a plan and work it out balance it properly. My boss said hopefully after New Years my roster will be more reliable and not all over the place. So once that is done I can kind of plan around that because I never could, always getting called in at last minute and so on. I just I’m sorry to anyone that I have hurt and disappointed along the way. Mainly one person and you know who you are and I know you don’t like it when I say who you are either but I really am sorry xx)

“Okay, let’s go,” I say with a small smile. I still don’t know what I’m meant to think about all this magic stuff and how much of it, I should believe. It’s too overwhelming for now.

I will get there when I cross that bridge. About 30 minutes later, we get to Mel's place. I hardly notice the time, my mind too preoccupied, trying to analyse everything that happened ‪this morning‬ and the last couple of days... Safe to say, my brain was losing this battle. As Mel's car slowly pulls into the driveway, my eyes stare numbly at the view. I always loved this place, even if I wasn't here too often, seeing it as my other home, right after my Aunties house. Where my parents lived, that was never a home. I blink a couple of times, trying to gain some focus and stare at the pretty little house, while I get out of the car. The house is bright, with sand colour walls. Two old cherry trees standing in front of it; a well-kept front yard. People say it sometimes as a joke, but the grass did always seemed greener here, as if in a slightly better world and with more possibilities.

I walk straight to the front door, I pull my own key out and unlock the door. I go straight up stairs to the spare room and put my stuff in there. I unpack my bags just like I would at a hotel and then go for a shower. I spend a good hour in the bathroom, I wrap my hair in a towel and then wrap a towel around my body to go downstairs. As I get to the lounge room I see Mel sitting in her love seat with a throw rug around her reading a book “how are you feeling love?” She asks as she puts her book down. “Your shower is amazing I could stay in there forever. You know that.” I say as I plonk myself down next to her with a big smile. I know that’s not what she meant but I’ll talk when I’m ready.

“When is Benny boy coming back home I haven’t seen him in forever.” I say changing the subject “he’s been gone for three months so if all goes well he’ll be home in three more.” She says with mixed emotions. I understand that. I wouldn’t be about to handle the love of my life going away for months at a time. He’s in the Air Force. “You’re an amazing woman you know that. I couldn’t handle it having him gone for so long constantly worried.” She shrugs “I always knew this was what he did I married him as well. Maybe you can cut my worry in half by not going out getting into fights more often.” She says playfully and gets up “I’m going to use my amazing shower I’ll be back soon.” She says with a smile and I nod.

This was the perfect time to use what I found on top of my fridge. I found a joint I was given by one of my dates my Aunty set me up on. I get up and make sure Mel is definitely in the shower and race to the laundry. I open the laundry door that leads outside and light up my joint. I inhale and fill my lungs up holding it in as long as I can and slowly blow it out. One I finish it off I’m pretty sleepy and relaxed. I shut the door and I see a white button up shirt that way too big for me, so it’s definitely Bens. I take it to my room and get dressed.

I put on socks as my feet were cold, I have undies and the shirt on. I go down stairs to the kitchen and put on some music on. Old time rock and roll come on so I start singing and dancing along to it just like Tom Cruze. When the song ends I turn around and I see Mel holding her phone up and my jaw drops “you didn’t.” She smirks “I did. Now what’s got into you? What you cookin?” She asks as she’s walking over “I wanted a bacon cheeseburger with lots of bacon. And chocolates I just want it all actually I’m starving.” I say as I pop some of the snacks I opened as I was cooking into my mouth. She frowns and walks up to me and looks into my eyes “fuck” I whisper “it was just pot I swear.” I say quickly and she shakes her head “just go sit down and I’ll cook. I don’t need you hurting yourself please.” She says softly and takes over cooking. I walk off sadly into the lounge room I take a seat on the recliner and lean back.

It was so comfortable I yawn and stretch. “Mmm so good” I say as I close my eyes and smell the food. That was a mistake because I didn’t reopen my eyes. I drifted of too sleep.