Why Me ?

Is it because I show pain or weakness when I look in the mirror I see hurt sadness my eyes lost through my soul star gazing into a deep empty space or maybe it’s because I look like what I’ve been through so much hurt and in denial it’s hard to overcome or maybe it’s because I don’t feel strong enough like I have no strength like a warrior whose lost in battle or a bird with wings but to afraid to fly a space with no stars just a black whole or maybe it’s cause I’ve told myself I couldn’t do it so many times I started to believe it was true or maybe cause I never had the nicest clothes or shoes never saw myself good enough gave in to what people told me some of us are forced to take these long winded journeys that force is to come back to ourselves

Why me God?  Why is it I have to carry this load? 

Did I do something wrong? Is is something I've said? 

Am I just a mistake? AM i BETTER OFF DEAD?  But God spoke to me when I created you I knew what you would see on earth you aren’t perfect but I’m my heaven you will I put you here on earth

To lead this life you live,

Learning as you go,

Giving what you can give. You are a work of my art gifted and molded from my almighty hands with the intent of pure love one day you’ll understand under the wings of my angel you will feel protected pray to me and we will be connected I could have given you the easy path but that would leave no room for glory or maybe the comfortable life but where the fun in that story you could have taken the prettier road but missed the most beautiful way you see my son I’ve always been amazed at how you stand so tall how you never give in you been but do not fall you are a survivor of the bad things that has happened to you the stars have aligned and this is the perfect time I love you my son so this is why I chose you .....