Tired

I am exhausted. I have been living with depression for more than two years now and I get tired just thinking about whether I'll ever be alright again. No one understands it, and I am not sure how to explain it, but I feel exhausted most of the time. Just getting out of bed, putting one foot in front of the other is a herculean task, at times. I wake up almost every morning with my bones aching, never feeling rested.

And I can't discuss this with friends and family, because no one wants to know. I don't blame them; depression is not pretty. But I do wish I didn't have to pretend that I am fine when I am not. I wish people would understand that it is not 'just a phase' that I can snap out of; that try as I might, 'being positive' is not going to help me very much; that this is a disorder and not a decision.

@CautiousRain